Monday, December 10, 2012

500 Days - The Girls Who Would Be Birds ...

Today, in another installment from 500 days, word begins to leak in Pithole about Widow Rickett's discovery of oil.  And, the consequences of this "leak" are surprising.
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Widow Ricketts: “Exit, pursued by a bear." - William Shakespeare


The oil just keeps rising like a dream.  We can't seem to fill buckets fast enough.  I tried to keep the laundry going, but now, I'm giving up.  Diana and I need to focus on the oil that is coming out in a steady flow.  It's day two and already every single tub has been filled with oil.  Laundry is piled from ceiling to floor all over the house.  We need to get proper equipment now.  So what that means is the word will have to get out.  So, yesterday I went into town to the general store and asked if I could purchase an oil drum.  You should have seen the look on Mr. Stokes face. 

“A what?”  He said.  “What you gonna do, wash laundry in it?”

 I just politely answered, yes, I was thinking about it, trying to suppress the smile blooming across my face. 

“There something you want to tell me about Widow Ricketts?”  He asked and I just smiled and said. 

“Yes, Mr. Stokes, you know how we had that fire night before last?  Well, we used my well to put it out.  In fact, we used it until it went dry.  Funny thing is next morning when I went out to check to see if it had refilled, it had, but not with water, it had refilled with oil.” 

“Well I'll be goddamned,” he said.  “The Widow Ricketts has struck it rich.  Who would have ever thought to drill right under the washer ladies house?”  I just smiled and cleared my throat.

“So, about that drum, do you know where I could get one, say later today?  We are in a real hurry as you might imagine.”

Just then, his eyes start to sparkle and he says.  “You bet ma'am.  I'll bring one over later today.”

“Thank you.” I said before I turned and walked away.

It was only a few hours later when Mr. Stokes and two other men arrived carrying a large drum on a wagon.  All three men quickly dismounted and got to work setting it with a line to the well before Diana or I could say a word.  While we were looking on, Mr. Stokes walks over stroking the shiny part of his sweating head with a handkerchief. 

“There is something I've been meaning to ask you Widow Ricketts.  Do you think we could have a private word?” He says, clearing his throat. 

I can see his discomfort and the way the sun is punishing him so I say, “yes, why don't we sit down over here in the shade.” 

“Thank you ma'am” he says.  And we sit under the Hemlocks. 

“Ma'am,” he says, “you know we both alone and this here project with the oil and all will likely be more than you and an old prostitute can handle.  I was thinking, out of your protection, you might want to give me your hand in marriage?  I 'll bet we could go down to the Methodist church and have Pastor Steadman perform the service tonight if you was so inclined.”  He said almost out of breath by the end from all of the words he had forced out of his mouth.

I was so shocked by his proposal, the only thing I could think to do was stand and the only thing  I could think to say was to quote Shakespeare,"I suggest you exit, Mr.Stokes unless you wish to be pursued by a bear!"

Well, you should have seen that man’s face.  He turned beat red, huffed and turned fast on his heel together up his men.  I just laughed and walked back to Diana.

“What was that about?”  She says.

“Oh Lordy, I say, I have a feeling me and you are gonna have us a lot of new suitors once word gets out.” I say, laughing to myself. 

Saturday, December 08, 2012

500 Days - The Girls Who Would Be Birds, Part 4


It's difficult to tell such a twisting story as 500 Days, but hopefully, some of you are able to follow these narratives as they weave in and out.  Today, the story switches from Amy and her mother and father back to Diana and Widow Ricketts. 

Diana, the Water Carrier


The trail from Widow Ricketts house to the creek is stony and wet. I've walked its course six or seven times today. It's not a far way to go and we need the water to do the wash. If we don't keep the wash going folks will start to suspect. Folks will start to ask questions. Widow Ricketts, I mean, Emmy, wants to keep up the charade at least for today. At least until she can figure out a plan.  The sun beats down on the stones in the path making them sparkle clean in the sun and I’m so intrigued by their beauty I startle when I see the girl crouched at the creek. She's bent over, her shoulders shaking.

So as not to scare her I say real loud. “Nice weather we having ain't we?”  Then, she looks up. Her eyes are blackened, her lip swollen and bloody, likely by the hand of Big Ben or some other pimp. Worse yet, it coulda been a John.

“Hi,” she say real low so as I couldn't hear her more than a whisper.

“Don't mean to pry but are you alright? You need some help?” I say in return. 

“No, it done.” She say, real empty and right then I know what it she talking about.

“I’m sorry for your loss.”  I say, keeping my eyes low.  Knowing she don’t want to talk anymore about the baby she’s just taken out of herself.  She just nods. 

As I fill up the water jugs, I turn to her and say.  “You know, my friend Emmy, you probably know her as Widow Ricketts?  Well, the strangest thing happened to her today and we are real busy with work because of it.  I’ll bet if you come on up to the house with me, she’d have some work for you?  You interested?  No need to decide now.  Just stop on by Widow Ricketts house if you want.  She’s just right up there on the ridge under them hemlocks trees.  You see it?”

She looked at me uncertainly and gave a slight nod.  I know she can’t just leave her job.  But, I hope she’ll come by.  With that, I scoop up my load of water, place it on my back and hurry up the trail to the house.  Wait until Widow…Emmy hears this story.

Friday, December 07, 2012

The Letter, Part 3: French Kate

Today is the final segment in Amy's section "The Letter" before we turn back to Diana and Widow Ricketts to see how the discovery of oil has changed their lives for the better. Hope you enjoy!
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French Kate: Revenge


I have no idea how that bitch found us.  That dumb girl must have told her family where she was going and somehow figured it out.  Well she ain’t getting that girl.  Not now.  If I was smart, I’d just have Ben go up there and finish her off.  She’s so green, we’ll have to break her.  She’s a fighter, but that don’t matter.  I can break any girl down.  Ben will want to kill her.  I can tell just by looking at him as he stands looking out the broken glass, clutching his bruised knuckles.  But, I don’t kill the girls.  It’s not worth it. I am many things, but not a murderer.

Instead, I’ll just let him go upstairs and get rough with her.  That way, when they come back, if they come back (I’ll bet they’ll be afraid to come), they’ll see our work here is done.  She ain’t coming back anymore.  She’s a changed girl. 


 

Thursday, December 06, 2012

Exciting News and 500 Days, The Letter, Continued ...

I've just recieved my publication schedule for my new chapbook that will be coming out from Finishing Line Press in June 2013. My chapbook is called The Flying Trolley and is about my experience teaching writing at Goldwater Hospital in New York City.  While I was teaching, I was hit by car and left unable to walk.  The book chronicles my how the long term care residents at Goldwater Hospital taughted me how to live with my bodies limitations.  I hope the work acts as a celebration of the gift they gave me (for which I will always be grateful).  I'll post news once you can pre-order The Flying Trolley early next year.

Today, in 500 Days, Amy's mother and father leave The Dew-Drop Inn without Amy in search of help.  Hope you enjoy! :
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Veronica: From a High Steeple


I have no idea what to do but run.  William is doubled over in pain.  When I look up the street, at its peak I see, like a miracle, a white, wooden church.  It looks to be only 100 yards away.  I can carry William that far and so I do.  I carry his crumbled, bloody body up the dusty street to where the church stands.  There are people staring at us as we stumble on our way.  No one asks us if we are all alright.  They just see us, then, look down to the ground.  It’s as if we are passing through a sea of nothing.

William is able to half-walk, half-shuffle.  He’s beaten badly.  Blood is pouring out from above his right eye.  His left is swollen shut and his nose is pouring blood.  The way he’s bent over I assume he’s hurt his ribs too.  I’m only bruised up from the fall and the kick to my stomach.  I can feel blood tricking down my forehead from a gash where I must have clipped the balustrade as I fell. William moans in pain: a low animal moan that I’ve never heard from his lips before.  It is like the sound a woman makes when she is hard in labor and the baby is pressing against her, but her body won’t yet give.  I’d never heard that sound from a man.   When I try the church door, I’m not surprised to find it open.  I push us through the threshold and set William gingerly inside a pew near the door.  Then I call out. 

“Help!  Please, someone help us! We need help!” as loud as I can possibly yell. 

Almost immediately a man rushes into the room. 

“What’s the matter?”  He asks.  Then, he looks us over.  “You aren’t from around here are you?”  He asks.  “What’s happened?” 

“They have our daughter.”  I say.  “We tried to rescue her.  We came all the way from New York, but they wouldn’t let us in.”

“Where is she?  And how do you know she’s there?” He asks.

“She sent us a letter. I got it in the mail just two days ago.”  I pant.  I’m red-faced and filled with a rage I’ve never known before.  I can taste it’s coppery taste at the back of my throat.  I feel as if the whole church glowing with the singe of my anger.  The pastor sees my face and he walks over and gently sets me down in a pew. 

“I think,” he says, “I’d like to hear this story from the beginning.” 

Wednesday, December 05, 2012

The Letter, Part 3, Continued 4


Today, more from Amy in her captivity as her situation gets worse.
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Amy: The Problem with Puzzles

The problem with puzzles is if you don't solve them, they never leave your head.  They linger and remain until you can find an answer. I've always had a mind for puzzles. But here in this dark attic, I am in one I can't seem to puzzle myself out.  Yesterday, when the man came to bring my bread he didn't ask if I was ready to begin my new job.  He cocked a shotgun and threw me down onto the wooden floor and pointed the two barrels at my head.  I could feel the cold steel pressing into my flesh.  Then with the weight of his whole body he threw himself into me and growled,  “You gonna fuck whether you like it or not.  You gonna take your first customer tonight, or I’m going to find the little town you are from and kill everyone you love one by one.  You hear me?  Now, I want you to fuck me like I’m paying for it.”

I have never felt as small as I did in that moment.  I begged and begged.  “Please, I screamed.  Please let me be.  Not this way.  Please!” 

But he didn't hear my words.  I was like an animal he was there to break.  I was nothing more.  I scratched his arms.  I bit him.  I did everything in what little power I had to stop him.  But it was all to no avail.  With one arm, he pressed me the barrel of the shotgun down on to me.  And with the other, he pulled up my skirts.  Pain ripped me as he entered me and I felt a darkness wash over me as his he grunted above me. 

When I woke up, I was alone again.  Lying on the pile of blankets he'd taken me on with my skirts pulled up.  I couldn't move but smoothed my skirts down.  Oh what have they made me? What have I become?

The puzzle has started to unwind in my mind. I am at its center, a dark, dark knot and I am unable to get out.  Will he come again?  When will my first customer visit me?  As the night passes and the dawn comes.  The days are no longer seamed.  Instead, they blur together. I fear the passage of time.  Every creak the house dares me that it might be him, or worse, another stranger that will rape me.  Reminds me that I am not safe.  I am trapped in a monkey’s fist.  I am at its center and the labyrinth I’d need to travel to get out is un-mappable.  I cannot see in the dark. 

I feel like I have walked through a door. On one side was before -- my life in Millerton, the sunlight pitching through trees, the quiet whiny of my horse. And on the other is the dark universe I now inhabit. It feels as if I am wearing new skin that is no longer my own. The sun has sunk low enough to dim the light, to let it into the room from the high windows. So, this is my new life, this is what I've become.

Tuesday, December 04, 2012

The Letter, Part 3 Continued 3

Today, Amy's mother and father find Pithole and the Dew-Drop Inn where Amy is being held captive.
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Amy’s Mother: Through the Dust we Find Hope

The dust that rises from the slope is blinding.  It's so thick I don't see how the horses see the track in front of them.  We had to take the wagon up from the town down below because the stage would have taken more time we didn’t have to lose.  I'm worn down and so is William by the looks of him, but neither one of us has said a word about it.  Every second counts, I think as we head up the hill and my mind whirs with the idea of what will await us.  What kind of place would trick a young girl to come to their door thinking she has a legitimate job and then imprison her?  My guess is the people behind this aren’t god fearing.  I can see the resolve that's settled into William's eyes.  He's a peaceful man at his core.  A man of God but what I see awakening in his face is a rage I didn’t even know he was capable of possessing. 

When we arrive in town I'm shocked by the place.  Every surface: the ground, the houses, the wooden sidewalks is covered in mud and oil.  Men aren't shaven and by the smell of it bathing isn't a common practice in Pithole.  As soon as our feet touch the ground William and I walk briskly to the post office to inquire where we might find the establishment Amy had told us she was joining.  Who knows if those crooks were stupid enough to use the real name of their establishment, but it's the one lead we've got so we've got to follow it. 

The post office is just a half block away and as we approach we see hundreds of people lined up around it waiting. The line curls around the building like an animal.  What do you think all the fuss is about?  I ask William and he just shrugs.  When we get close, he asks a man who is waiting online.

“Why you just found yourself one of the busiest post offices in the nation!” he announces in a loud, proud voice.  We see quickly that we aren’t going to make much headway here, so we walk to the first intersection. 

“If we split up,” I say, “I’ll bet we can find the establishment in half a day.” I say.  But William frowns and says he won’t allow it.  It isn’t safe. 

“There are drunken men everywhere,” he says, “and what would you do if you found the place?”  I realize he is right but hesitate before I agree.  And so our search of Pithole begins with the two of us walking the dusty planks side by side, looking into the dusty plate glass windows, searching aimlessly for our lost child.

It takes us about two hours to find the Dewdrop Inn, the address that Amy had placed on the letter she somehow sent.  Funny thing is, it doesn’t even try to look like an inn.  It’s a three-story house, with a wooden porch.  We walk up to the fogged glass door and knock.  Quickly, a man answers the door.  He is commanding in his height, with raven black hair. 

“What can I do for you folks,” he says, looking us over suspiciously.

“We are looking for our daughter, Amy.”  My husband says, looking intensely at the man in the doorway. 

Instantly, a wave of knowledge passes through the man’s face, as if he has realized who we are and why we’ve come to his establishment.  “Ain’t no new girls around here,” he says, looking my husband up and down.  “Looks like you got the wrong house.  Why don’t you two head on down the road.”

Almost immediately, William’s face become lit with the fire of his anger as he opens his mouth and states his plain reply.  “We received a letter from our daughter Amy.  She says, she’s locked here in the attic of your establishment. We don’t mean you any harm.  We only want to gather our daughter who wishes to leave your establishment.  So, if you don’t mind, I’d appreciate it if you’d step aside and let us pass.”

With these words, I see a flash of recognition or surprise flash over the man’s face.  It doesn’t last long, and he’s quick to correct it, but for one second I can see that what we’ve spoken is truth.  With that hope, I lose control of myself and throw my whole weight against the door. 

I scream, “Amy, Amy?  Are you in there?  We’re here darling!  Come down and come away with us.” 

The man sees me lunge and quickly places his arm in my way. “You ain’t coming in,” he says with the whole mass of his body.  But I fight him hard.  “Let me in!”  I scream.  “I know she’s in there.  What kind of animal are you to keep a young girl trapped in your attic?!”

He just grins a crooked grin.  That’s when I see the red marks climbing his arms.  They are fresh.  I think, oh Lord, at least she’s fighting back that means she’s alive.

William says loud and firm, “If this is how you receive us, we will return with the law!” 

“Ain’t no law in this town,” the man laughs back.  “You even know where you are you dumb fucks?  You in Pithole.  Only law here is oil.  Other than that, you on your own.”

And with that he slams the door in our faces.

No,” I scream, banging my arms on the closed wood door, “No, Noooooooo!”.  William puts his arms around my sobbing shoulders and says softly in my ear, “we should go.  Don’t worry.  We will find another way to get her out of there.  This isn’t over.  I promise.” 

But I can’t move.  It’s as if my legs have gone wooden and grown into the very spot where I am standing.  I’m not going.  I’m not leaving until we get our daughter out of here.  Who knows what that beast of a man will do once we leave this spot.  I sob, “he’s going to go up the stairs and beat her, or worse!” 

“You’re right,”  he says and I see the truth of my words register in his face. “We’ve got to go in.”  Our eyes lock in agreement.  I grab the handle and feel immediately that it is locked.  Before I can react, in one swift move William kicks in the glass door, leans his arm in and undoes the lock.  When he pushes his whole weight against the wooden door, we rush in. 

The man, who we realize has just been waiting for us to enter, is on us almost immediately.  He swings and punches William hard in the face.  Blood spurts from his nose. 

“I said I didn’t want the likes of you around here,” he says taking another punch this time at William’s kidneys.  But he’s half turned and engrossed in beating William and I see my chance.  I run for the wooden stair case I see directly in front of me, my heart pounding in my throat.  My feet fly across the room, then up the flight of stairs before the man notices me.  I look back relieved to see I’d slipped by, but just as I turn back around I see her:  a woman standing at the top of the stairs in tall heeled boots, a bodice and a long velvet skirt.  She is smiling a wide, sick grin and patting a shot gun that is lying gently across her arms. 

“I don’t think you are going anywhere Ma’am.  This is my house and I don’t take well to uninvited guests.”  With these words she grabs me hard by the arm and with one swift kick sends me tumbling down the stairs.

When I gather my senses at the bottom of the stairs I see the large man looking down at me.  “I see you’ve met the lady of the house,”  he says kicking me swiftly in the ribs.  “NOW GET THE FUCK OUT!”

I am trembling with fear and then I see William, covered in blood.   “Oh what monsters have our child?”  I think.  There is nothing left to do but to try and stand, to gather William up and shuffle out the door.  We are beaten.  We cannot get Amy out alone.  “We must find help.  We must find help.”  I whisper again and again to myself as we are pushed out the door by our laughing assailants.

 “And don’t come back!” They shout at our swooped forms as we shuffle away from the house bloody and defeated.

Monday, December 03, 2012

The Letter, Part 3, Continued 2

I couldn't post all weekend because we were without power.  Ah, the country life!  But I am back now with your next segment. The next section of 500 Days is about a new character, French Kate.  She's the madame at the brothel where Amy has ended up.  This section introduces her and gives her background information.  Hope you enjoy!
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Catherine’s Fortune


I don’t know how I got the name French Kate.  But folks who know me call my Kate.  My real name is Catherine LeConte, but no one here in Pithole knows this except for Ben.  I go by Kate Granger or French Kate for short.  This here is my house and we do real good business.  Ben keeps the girls in order and the men from getting too rowdy.  Ben doesn't always play it straight.  He's known for getting mixed up in a brawl, for coming home with a bloody lip, or for gambling with the wrong sorts.  I can’t tell you how many times someone has come knocking on our door with a shotgun in the middle of the night.  No law can keep him from doing wrong.  Ben’s no fool though; he doesn’t try and get himself killed.   And the second he walks through the door and sees me, his eyes light up.  I've always had that giant under my thumb. 

Just under a fortnight ago we were getting low on staff.  Girls here get tired of the business after a few months and they run off.  There are a few tough ones, who stay, and there are few more who are scared to leave for fear of Ben or me, but our numbers are always going down.  And in a town like this where there are fifty men to one woman, staff is hard to come by.  So, Ben came up with this idea.  He's real good with ideas.  He put the ad in the Buffalo paper advertising a “hotel” we are running where we needed fine young girls who could work as part of our staff.  I got a real belly laugh when I read it.  Told him he ought to get himself a job at the Pihole Register as a reporter!  Told him he could give old Crocus a run for his money. I didn’t expect much from it, but since he sent it out we’ve gotten half a dozen girls rolling in from all over New York.  Most are young and inexperienced and real surprised when they walk through the door.  But, it don’t take long to turn them around.  A day or two locked up.  A good fuck or two by Ben and a few threats that we are gonna find their families and kill them and they open up their legs to the public. 

When this last girl got off the train though I could see she was green as a sapling, probably never even kissed a man.  I knew right away she'd be hard to break.  But, I got my ways.  So do Ben.  It's been 10 days and she's still holding out.  Tomorrow, I'll tell Ben to break her in harder, maybe bring in a gun or a knife.  Scare the fuck into her. I'm tired of hearing her moaning and crying above my bed in the attic and we let her go much longer she’s gonna be too weak to fuck anyone for a week.

I wasn't always a Madame.  I used to live in an elegant house away from dust and mud.  I wore the finest gowns and was waited on by a full staff.  My husband, Confederate General LeConte, was well respected in New Orleans.  And he adored me each and every day he was alive.  Damn that war.  What was I supposed to do, stay in that house alone after he died?  Live off that measly pension they sent me?  Graciously accept the note: Thank you ma'am.  Your husband was a fine citizen of the United States of America.  I don't give a damn about this country.  I had myself a fine life until this country took it all away from me.  So, what was I to do?  Sit and wait?  Learn a trade?  I've always been good with men.  Since I was a little girl, I could charm all of my father's friends.  The boys at school would follow me around like a pack of starving dogs.  Prostitution came naturally to me.  I liked the power I held over those men.  Touch them the right way and they look at you like you were a god. 

I started pulling tricks in New Orleans, but soon realized my old reputation would get in the way of who I wanted to become so I headed East.  I first met Ben in New York.  He was working as part of a traveling gymnastics show as the strong man and he came to the house I was working looking for a good fuck.  I'll never forget the first time he saw me.  He jaw just about dropped looking at me naked before him.  Right then, I knew I had him under my thumb for as long as I needed him.  Within a few months we had both settled in Pithole and set up shop.  He had passed through this town as part of his gymnastic act a few months before and he talked about the ratios of men to women.  “It’ll be a racket!” He said grinning his big, stupid smile.  “Ain’t enough women to fuck in that town.” He became my business partner.  I'm tough and have no problem keeping those girls in line but when it comes to the angry johns, and the local business partners who want to swing deals, it helps to have Ben's six and a half foot frame looming next to me.  This town is like a fountain of money.  Those boys hit oil, get cash, and give it right to me.  They drink it away at my bar, they fuck it away with my girls and I just smile and take their money.

Once, a few years ago, I got a letter from someone in my old life.  Ms. LeMurre, was an old neighbor and a dear friend in New Orleans.  Her husband was also a confederate general, so we spent countless hours together during the war.  But, when the war ended and her husband came home, and mine did not, I couldn't stand her.  I hated that her husband had lived when mine had died.  What’s worse is she never even knocked on my door to offer condolences.  She'd just peek through her window curtains every once in a while to see first, the furniture being taken away, then the servants being let go.  Or, finally, the men I begin to let in as I learned my new trade.  I’ll give her this, she never did call the cops on me.  She just kept those curtains closed tight once she knew what was going on.

That’s why when the letter arrived, I didn't bother opening it.  But even the existence of that letter filled me with rage.  Those first few months before I knew what to do came rushing back to me in a terrible wave.  For the first time in years I felt the loss and loneliness washing over me and I hated her even more for that.  I remembered my old life.  It was in that rage that I threw the letter down in the muddy street.  It was undoubtedly just a letter of regret.  One where she finally pours out her heart about how she'd wished she been there to help me in my time of need.  How, if only she had, my life wouldn't have taken this terrible turn.  How she hopes now she can become my friend again and save me.

Well, Ms. LeMurre, my fortune ain’t as bad as you make it out.  I got more power in Pithole then you'd ever wish for.  My girls are the best in town because I train them that way.  They know how to make men beg for more.  Power men come to our town just to fuck my girls.  I don't need your god damned pity.  How do you like being face down in the mud without a hope? 

“Ben” I shout, still feeling the rage in my cheeks.  “Go visit the girl.  It’s time to break her in the hard way. Bring in a shotgun, knife, whatever you think will work.  Threaten her like you did that last one – threaten to find her family and kill them.”

Friday, November 30, 2012

The Letter, Part 3

Today, the story turns back to Amy and her plight: locked up in the attic of a brothel.  When we last left her, she had found a scrap of paper, written a letter to her mother and slipped it through a crack between the boards of the building.  What follows, is what Amy's mother did when she received the letter.  Hope you enjoy!
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Amy's Mother: I Would Rather Have Wings

I would rather have wings then sit in this cold, slow train. The landscape slides by as if it is on ice.  Outside, trees jut like questions out of iced swamps and  fog breathes near the surface.  The rolling hills are covered in bare trees.  The whole landscape seems to foretell this terrible tragedy.  William and I sit still side-by-side in the train, silent, as if we are afraid to speak.  William, who as a pastor, turns first to the lord’s word as guidance.  His finger is stuck in his worn bible, as if by touching the verse he'll be able to connect it's meaning, to our terrible cause.  It has only been 18 long hours since we received Amy's letter.  A small part of me feels relief to hear she is alive.  But the rest of me is so worried I can’t think straight.  Time seems to be nothing but an enemy now. Who knows how and when she posted the letter.  But her circumstances are dire and we need to get to her as quickly as possible. 
We had little to go on, a post mark from a city we've never heard of: Pithole, Pennsylvania. My memory of that moment is blurred - riding Amy's roan horse furiously into town to find William and to tell him the news.  Then, running up the wooden steps to the little lean-to office at the back of the Methodist Church where William sat engrossed in his studies in the low lamp light. When he saw my face, which must have been white as a ghost, he looked alarmed. 
"What is it?"  He said.  I couldn't speak, and instead handed him the crumpled letter I didn't know I had been clutching until then.  When he read the words, he sat down hard in his wooden chair, muttering low, "no, no."  He was paled as I was but stood up almost directly as if suddenly possessed to lead a charge.  “We have no choice but to leave immediately.  We have to find her.” 
Within half an hour we were at the train depot ticket counter. William was breathless when he spoke as if he had been galloping, not the horse.  "We need tickets to this place," he said pointing to the post mark.  "You know how to get to place called Pithole, Pennsylvania, fast?"
The ticket master just looked at us strangely.  We must have looked a sorry pair! My hair was had fallen down in wisps and moons of sweat grew beneath my arms.  William was red-faced and equally drenched in sweat. The man at the ticket counter just shook his head from side to side and then slowly looked down into his books. After what seemed like a hour, he muttered back up to us without looking up, "hmm…looks like that city is near Oil City, Pennsylvania, but there are no trains to that town.  Closest I can get you is Oil City.  Quickest way I can route you there is this: take the 5:00 pm train to New York City if there are still seats left.  Let me check. Yes, looks like there are a couple of seats.  Then, you’ll need to transfer to the Pittsburgh line from Grand Central Station.  From Pittsburgh there’s a train to Oil City leaving the following morning."  He said in one long continuous breath.

"We'll take it.”  William said reaching into his billfold,  “two tickets please." After he passed the money through the iron grates he looked down nervously at his pocket watch.  It was 4:45 pm.  It was at that moment that I realized I hadn't muttered a word.  I'd only shown him the letter, and then followed his lead.  The train whistle screamed behind me startling me and tearing me awake from the dazed shock I’d settled into.  "Amy" I said, under my breath. "We are coming to save you."

Now we are here, my head against cool glass, William's free hand grasping mine, staring at the mute trees rising from the swamps somewhere in Pennsylvania.  According to our tickets we should arrive in Oil City in less than an hour.  From there, we have no idea how to get where we are going.  According to the ticket master in Pittsburgh, there are no trains to Pithole from Oil City, there are only coaches and wagons to hire. 

The farther north we travel the more the passengers on the train change.  There are less and less women.  Before, most of the seats were filled with ladies wearing proper attire, carrying themselves in fine dresses, their male companions or chaperons and occasionally, a few children. There had also been men but they were properly dressed in suits and usually reading newspapers.  Now, the train is filled more and more with hollow cheeked men with dirty coats and dead eyes.  There are still a few women, but less and less are accompanied more and more look as hollow and lost as the men.  The closer we get to this town, the more I began to realize where we must be going.  I'd read about these places in the papers: a boom town, a place where men go to get rich, a place were morals and food and lodging were scarce.  I can only imagine what a terrible place our Amy is in. 

With that thought spinning though my mind, I turn violently to William grasp his shoulder and look him pleadingly in the face.  "Oh William!  What will we do?  What kind of place is this that we are going to?  What has befallen our daughter?”  William, instead of being startled, just smiles, clutches his hand in mine. I can see the cool calm in his eyes that’s settled so many people at their time of need.  I think of all of his parishioners who have come knocking on our door late at night, begging for strength in their times of need.  In his deep water voice he says, “Let’s pray dear.”  So, we both look down towards the ever moving floor of the train, toward the orange peels and dirt and discarded shells.  "Dear Lord," he says as we close our eyes, “please guide us with your everlasting strength.  Please grant us our greatest joy, our daughter, and let us find her in whatever circumstances that have become her.  Grant us the courage and strength to rescue her from whatever has befallen her in this place."

With these words we sit in silence.  I will my mind to think only of love and strength and memories of home.  I close my eyes again and try desperately to will that love and strength to Amy, to reach her wherever she is now.  And just the thought of this action makes me feel as if the train is traveling a little faster, makes me feel hope pushing us along.